The Secret Goldfish

David Means’s collection, The Secret Goldfish (2016), comprises fifteen stories, most of which take place in the post-industrial American Midwest.

The titular story centers on a neglected goldfish and the family slowly collapsing around him. Fish's tank is dirty and barely livable. A little deformed, he has made it to six years old when a child in the house, Teddy, notices him again. Teddy calls for Mom to clean the fishbowl out.

Previously, a pet store had given the fish to Mom's children during a preschool field trip. Despite their initial excitement and claims that they were old enough to handle such a responsibility, the tank is rarely cleaned, and Fish is consistently overfed. Fish has become Mom's responsibility.



Mom flashes back to her childhood goldfish, Fred. Mom’s negligent father set Fred free in Grayling Pond; she vividly remembers the moment her favorite pet was released into the water. She thinks about it often.

Soon after releasing Mom's fish, Mom's father leaves her mother and is crushed in an ice crevasse while working on Lake Superior. Mom imagines that he asked for her forgiveness for being a bad father, a bad husband, and for disposing of her goldfish.

In the present day, Mom's own marriage is falling apart. She has learned that her husband is having an affair, something she refused to see despite multiple signs. The children, playacting in the backyard, mimic their parents saying things like "I knew you'd lawyer up."



Mom reflects on her marriage: the honeymoon years, giving up her career, and never-ending housework. Mom watches Fish, wondering if he realizes the eternal Hell he's trapped inside. Sometimes, as she watches Fish, she stands still among her tasks as Fish does in his dirty water.

We return to Teddy at the beginning of the story pointing out Fish's tank. Mom cleans out the tank, noting that Fish is determined to stay alive in terrible conditions. In his freshly cleaned bowl, Mom sees that Fish is happy and healthy, despite the "scars of an abused fish" that he still carries.

As we learn that Mom and Dad's divorce is finalized, Fish's tank has fallen into disarray again. Mom has received the house in the settlement. Fish, unaware of the turmoil around him, does understand that "the world is a mucky mess. It gets clotted up and submerged in its own gunk."



The story closes on the day that Dad is packing his things. Noticing Fish's dirty tank, Mom is surprised to find him alive. She has entertained ideas of holding a funeral for him. She decides instead to hold a "resurrection party" for Fish. She plans to get him a new tank with fresh water and some fish companions.

Mom sees her life as running parallel to Fish's life. She is a neglected wife who gets mucked up by her own responsibilities and a lousy marriage but persists. Fish's resurrection party on the day that her ex-husband departs is symbolic of Mom's new beginning, scarred though she may be.

The rest of the stories in the collection have similar themes, but much darker endings. Decay, unexpected demises, and a general theme of hopelessness pervade the book. Mirroring the freak accident of Mom's father in the titular story, in "Michigan Death Trip," Means lists several strange ways that people have died in Michigan. Likewise, in "Lightning Man," we learn about a man who has been struck by lightning seven times and survived, but now waits for the final strike that he is certain will kill him. One man's relationship in "Blown from the Bridge" ends abruptly when a storm carries his girlfriend's car off Mackinac Bridge.



Several stories follow the drug-addicted wanderers of the post-industrial Midwest. In "A Visit from Jesus," Means tells the story of a mentally ill woman who becomes fatally addicted to heroin after discovering her boyfriend's gay porn. In "Hunger," a pair of drifters kills an old man in an attempt to rob him.

Means also plays with themes of disability in connection with emotional stress. "Petrouchka [With Omissions]" and "The Nest" tell the stories of two men who have lost the use of one hand. The former is about an unfaithful pianist and the latter a surgeon working on his relationship with his daughter.

Means also experiments with different formats. In "It Counts as Seeing," he tells the story of a blind man falling down the stairs from multiple perspectives, questioning what makes a reliable narrator. "Counterparts" tells about an affair in sections labeled A-Z and "Petrouchka [With Omissions]" is written in the first person and then switches to the third person to fill in gaps in the narrative.