Only Ever Yours

Only Ever Yours is a feminist dystopian novel by Louise O’Neill. First published in 2014 and awarded the 2015 YA Book Prize, the novel centers on young girls struggling to survive in a vicious and relentlessly patriarchal alternative world. The book received widespread critical praise for its unapologetic look at issues affecting young women, including sex, self-esteem, and eating disorders. O’Neill is an internationally bestselling Irish author who writes books for teenagers and adults. She wrote her debut, Only Ever Yours, after working in fashion for a year and suffering from an eating disorder.

Only Ever Yours takes place in a world where only boys are born naturally. Girls are bred in laboratories. Girls have no purpose other than to serve and procreate. The highest honor bestowed on a female is marriage when a girl becomes someone’s “companion.”

Girls must fight to achieve this coveted position. They attend special schools where they learn how to please men. The boys their age then visit the school and put girls through their paces until they choose the girls they want. The girls who aren’t chosen as companions become concubines, chaste nuns, or slaves. Some are even exterminated or undergo medical experimentation.



In this world, there is nothing pleasant about becoming a companion. Men don’t love women. They only have sex with companions to create male heirs. They have sex with concubines for pleasure. What’s more, when the women grow old, the husbands send them away and replace them with younger women.

The novel’s protagonist is freida. Here, female names are never capitalized, showing how unimportant they are. freida is sixteen; her best friend is isabel. They share a room together at a grooming school. The novel opens on the first day of a new school year. This is their final year, and it is very important.

The girls must compete for a place on a ranking table. The higher their ranking, the better the match they will secure. The rich and/or handsome boys only choose girls in the top ten. All freida and isabel care about is making the grade. They must look beautiful. They can’t carry any extra weight and they can’t have any physical flaws. They must sleep and exercise properly to keep their bodies in prime reproductive condition. Above all, they cannot have sex before a boy chooses them for marriage.



As the year begins, freida already scores in the top ten. Isabel is number one. Their fiercest rival is megan, who wants is to claw her way into the top spot. She doesn’t care about making friends because friendships don’t matter in this world. Throughout the first semester, megan continually picks on the girls, making it hard for them to keep their rankings.

One day, isabel noticeably puts on weight. The girls, including megan, tease her relentlessly for it. Although freida cares about isabel, she cares more about her ranking and her future. She does not join in with the teasing, but she does not defend her, either. Soon, isabel’s ranking drops, and megan and freida fight for the top spot.

Meanwhile, the teachers invite boys to the school. These boys are the girls’ future husbands. The boys line the girls up and watch them undertake different activities. They choose their favorite girls and spend private time with them. The boys rank the girls and pair off at the year’s end.



Unsurprisingly, megan wants to snare the most attractive and richest boy because he will give her a great life until she is retired. However, it doesn’t matter what the girls think of the boys. The girls are not allowed to show emotion or attraction of any kind. They exist purely to satisfy male needs. Still, when the boys arrive, freida cannot help falling for the prettiest one.

The boy, Darwin, fancies freida, too. Although megan is more physically attractive, freida has a better personality. Unfortunately, Darwin’s father runs the reproductive program, and he is very influential. Darwin must marry the number one girl, whether it is freida or megan. All freida cares about is pleasing him, and she will do anything he asks.

Isabel disappears is no longer in any rankings. Now, freida faces off against megan without any help or friendship. She tells Darwin about her troubles, truly believing that Darwin cares about her. Darwin takes freida into a private room and they sleep together. It is awkward, painful, and clinical, but freida thinks it is the only way to win Darwin’s hand. When megan discovers this, she ruins freida by telling everyone about the illicit encounter.



Although Darwin prefers freida, he accepts that megan is now the number one girl. He asks to marry megan. Freida, on the other hand, falls into disgrace. She is removed from classes and sentenced to chastity. The doctors damage her reproductive organs because she has no more use for them. The teachers then place her into a permanent coma, using her for medical testing. Meanwhile, megan marries Darwin and has perfect children.